A new chapter
I was away for a reason, my life was changing and I wanted to experience and enjoy every moment of the whole process….so what exactly changed, I don’t know yet, except for that tiny ‘r’ between the M and s and that I have another family that I can now call my own.
Yaadon mein kitni dafa…
Yaadon mein kitni dafa, tumhari gali tumhara dard pukarta raha
magar kya karoon, mujhse hi aaya na gaya,
ek gham jo diya tha maine, mujhse bhulaya na gaya
us roz main yahan se gaya tha ye sochkar ki laut aaunga
ek waada jo kiya tha tumse wo nibha jaunga,
par shayad us waqt zindagi ko ye manzoor naa tha
warna main is qadar bhi majboor naa tha
abhi bhi waqt hai, haan waqt hai abhi,
lekin ye waada hai khud se ki ek din tumhare saamne aunga main
tumne jo kiya tha wo har shikwa mita jaunga
yakeen dila dunga ki main bura tha, magar itna bhi nahi
warna tumhara har ilzaam apne sir utha lunga, jo kar paya gar itna bhi nahi
– Na bole tum na maine kuch kaha
Several times in my memories, I could hear your lane, your pain call out to me
But I just could not return,
I could not forget the misery I gave you,
Otherwise I was not so helpless that I could not return
The day I left your place, I thought I will return soon,
After I have fulfilled that promise I made to you,
But I guess life had other plans for us,
I know there is still time
And I have made a promise to myself that one day we will stand face to face
and that day I will clear all the complaints you have against me
I will make you realize, that I might not have been good, but I am not as bad as you think I am
Else I will accept all your blame and leave, if I cannot do even this much for you.
This song is from the movie Special 26.There is a male version (By Papon) and a female version (by Sunidhi Chauhan), I am in love with both versions. I also like how the song starts and ends with the same line. In the beginning the line has an inquisitive tone (like a question), and as the song unfolds and ends, the same line has an assuring tone (like an answer).
Kaun mera, mera kya tu laage
Kyun tu baandhe mann ke mann se dhaage
Bas chale na kyun mera tere aage
Who are you to me? What is our relationship
Why do you create a bond (thread) that connects our hearts
Why do I have no control over me (emotions) when it comes to you
Dhoondh hi loge mujhe tum har jagah ab to, mujhko khabar hai
Ho gaya hoon jab se tera main hawa mein hoon , tera asar hai
Tere paas hoon, ehsaas mein main yaad mein teri
Tera thikaana ban gaya ab saans mein meri
I know for sure that you will eventually find me, no matter where I go
Since the day I became yours, I am on cloud number nine (literally I am up in the air, i.e. very happy)
I am near you, I am what you feel, I am in your memories too.
And you have become a part of every breath I take. (inseparable)
Chod kar na tu kahin bhi dur ab jaana, tujhko kasam hai
Saath rehna jo bhi hai tu, jhooth ya sach hai, ya bharam hai
Apna banaane ka jatan kar hi chuke ab to
Baiyaan pakad kar aaj chal main du bata sabko
Kaun mera, mera kya tu laage
Promise me you will never ever leave me and go away
Stay with me as long as I live, I don’t care if you are a lie, a truth or just a figment of my imagination
I already took the efforts to make you mine,
I want to hold your hand and let everyone (the world) know
What you mean to me, and what is our relationship.
I came across this song, when watching a daily soap. The context of the song was Yashoda singing this song for Lord Krishna. ( For those of you who do not know, Lord Krishna was born to Devaki and Vasudeva, but was brought up by Yashoda and Nanda. Yashoda had no blood relations with Lord Krishna, but there are numerous tales of the loving relationship she shared with Lord Krishna, and Yashoda is referred to as Krishna’s de facto mother.)
The actual situation of the song in the movie is on a more romantic note I am guessing. And this is what I feel is the beauty of the song. Its simple, but expresses the feeling of love as a universal feeling that can be experienced by anyone, for anyone. 
Enjoy!
The Personal Myth
"It ain’t so much the things we don’t know that get us into trouble, it’s the things we do know that just ain’t so." --Mark Twain
Some (very reputable) psychologists are absolutely convinced that DNA is destiny. Other (very reputable) psychologists are convinced that your personality is shaped by what happens to you as an infant - or perhaps even in the first few minutes of life.
A ring is more than just a ring
To the world, its a symbol of commitment, to him its a circle of trust, to her its a lifetime of togetherness, and to her mom its a sign of a secure future (read as financially sound son-in-law )
This came my way when I was least expecting it. It was cold, I had not slept well the previous night, I had to prepare for a meeting in an hour, I was starving but did not have enough time to grab some breakfast. He insisted we should spend the morning the same way we did four years back when we switched from being just friends to special friends. I liked the idea but had too much going on. I was not sure if we would make it to the sunrise point in time for the sunrise and be back before my meeting, but then he kept on insisting and I gave in. I squeezed in a few minutes in the my otherwise busy morning, and those minutes quickly became one of the best few minutes of my life, when he went down on his knees, as the sun rose from the horizon, and asked,
“Are you sure you want to marry me? ” (Yea he is a funny guy!)
I said, “I think so! “ (Yea I am a not so confident girl)
and the day suddenly became special, and everything looked perfect, I could feel the warm sunshine amidst the cold breeze, my grumpy sleepy soul transformed into a smiling excited being, nothing seemed to bother me anymore. And this is how the funny guy and the not so confident girl decided to spend the rest of their lives together….
Shayad hum fir mile…
raaste hain wahin, hai wahin pe manzilein
lekin hai aaj bhi, wo ruke se faasle
pyaar jo tha zindagi, kho gaya jaane kahan
reh gaye hain darmiyaan jhoote shikwe gile
dil ko hai shaq magar shayad hum fir mile
– Na bole tum na maine kuch kaha (30th Jan 2013)
The roads are the same, destiny is the same,
but there still remain some untraveled distances between us
The love (we shared) which was our life, I have no idea where we lost it
The only thing between us now are some false complaints and reproach
The heart still hopes (has a doubt) that we will meet some day!
Us roz…..
Us roz darwaaza to band kiya tha maine, khidkiyaan bhi tabse kholi nahi hai,
fir kyun yaadon ke dareechon se jhaankte ho tum,
main dur jitna bhi jaaon, kyun mere peeche bhaagte ho tum,
nahi mere paas tumse kehne ko kuch bhi nahi hai,
naa hi main sunna chahti hoon ki tum kehne kya aate ho,
mat aaya karo baar baar yahan, ab kuch bhi tumhara nahi hai
mat aaya karo kyunki yahan ab kisi ko bhi tumhara intezaar nahi hai
– Naa bole tum na maine kuch kaha (30th jan 2013)
I closed the door that day, and I have not opened the windows since then,
Why do you still keep peeping through my memories (windows of memories),
The more I try to stay away from you, the more you keep following me,
I do not have anything to say,
and I do not want to know whatever you have to say,
don’t come here, there is nothing here that belongs to you anymore,
don’t come here, because there is no one waiting for you anymore.
