Aur ho (Rockstar) – Lyrics and Meaning

Love, Anger, Passion, Confusion, Fear, Helplessness – have you ever experienced all of these together, well that is exactly what I experienced when I first heard this song…..From the first beat to the last, this song is a journey through a plethora of emotions, some strong and some subtle. I wouldn’t call the lyrics exceptional, but the music and Mohit Chauhan’s voice take it to a different level altogether. If you have not heard the song click here NOW 🙂 , and then you will know what I mean. If you know what the movie is all about and know the situation of the song, you probably already know what I mean.

Meri bebasi ka bayaan hai, bas chal raha na is ghadi 

Ras hasrat ka nichod doon, kas baahon mein aa tod doon

Chaahoon kya jaano na , cheen loon chod doon

Is lamhe kya kar jaoon, Is lamhe kya kar jaaon 

Is lamhe kya kar doon main jo mujhe chain mile araam mile 

It is a description of my helplessness, that I have no control over anything at the moment, 

I want to fulfill all my desires , I will hold you so tightly in my arms that it will break you 

I don’t know what I want, 

Should I just snatch you , or should I just leave you, 

What should I do at this moment, what should I do at this moment

What should I do at this moment, so that I can have some peace of mind, some rest.

Aur ho aur ho saans ka shor ho, aanch bhi aur badhe 

aur ho aur ho saans ka shor ho, taap bhi aur chadhe 

aur ho aur ho, aur mile hum aur bhi jal jaayein

tujhe pehli baar main milta hoon har dafaa

meri bebasi ka bayaan hai 

Let there be more noise as I breathe, let the flames rise

Let there be more noise as I breathe, let there be more heat

Let us meet again, let us burn even more

It feels like our first meeting, whenever I meet you

This is a description of my helplessness 

Tujhe cheen loon ya chod doon, tujhe maang loon ya mod doon, 

Is lamhe kya kar jaaon, …

Should I snatch you, or leave you, should I ask for you, or turn you away

What should I do at this moment

Main hasrat mein uljhi dor hoon aaj, suljha de 

Main dastak hoon tu band kiwaadon sa, khulja re 

O bebasi, man mein basi, aa jeete jeete jeele sapna 

Aur ho Aur ho ……

I am entangled in my desires, please untangle me, 

I am like a knock, and your are like a closed door, please open up to me

Oh helplessness, that resides in my heart, let me live and as I live let me live my dreams

Ruke se na ruke, ye na thake,

aandhi si jo chale in saanson ki 

pata bhi na chale, kahan pe kya jale hai darr se

tan man ki sihran se, hasrat ki sulgan se, bhadke aur 

shola shola jale bujhe dhuan dhuan ho

dhuan dhuan lage mujhe dhuan dhuan ho 

meri bebasi ka bayaan hai 

It is endless (it does not stop), It is untiring 

This storm that fills every breath of mine 

I don’t even know what has been burning, it is my fear, 

The tingling sensation in my mind and body, the ignition of desires

which causes it to burn even more

I see flames lighting and burning out, causing smoke

I see smoke all around me, engulfing me

It is the description of my helplessness…..

He feared losing her yet again, He loved her so much that he could die for her, He was so angry that he could kill her if she did not come back to him, He was so passionate about her, he could kill the person who came close to her, He was confused when it came to choosing between what he was expected to do, and what he wanted to do, and he was helpless as he could do nothing about it, simply nothing. He could not stay with her, but he could not leave her, he wanted to free himself from her, but he was still tied to her and so he desired to destroy himself, to burn in his unfulfilled desires and see the smoke rise in front of him.

It takes only a moment to part, but a lifetime to forget that moment. You can either forget it, or live in that memory forever, but not knowing which one to do is the one that leaves you scared, miserable, angry and helpless.  As they say, love can do both, it can make you or break you.


Jan Gan Man

Couldn’t have expressed it better! To 66 years of independence, to the country where I was born, to the country where I feel at home, to India….

Science of Confusion

I shy away from the jingoistic version of patriotism and other forms of total bias to ones birth nation. After all, to be born of a certain nationality is nothing but an accident, a mere coincidence. We have no control over what our nationality of birth can be or should be. So the extreme bias, the chest-thumping fervor, and the feel of superiority (or inferiority) for one’s nation somehow eludes me.  I merely go by the fact that I was born within the geographical boundaries of India and to parents who were born and raised within India. But generally speaking, I consider myself a resident of this planet who happens to be born in India.

When I express this to other Indians, I almost always get criticized as someone who is ashamed of identifying oneself as an “Indian”. It is difficult to make these people understand that this position of…

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Words or Feelings….

I was going through my physics notes when I found this one, I don’t remember where I picked it from (I must have been browsing the net, when I should have been working on some assignment 🙂 ). but I am glad I wrote it down.

There is always a TRUTH behind, “I was just joking !”

A little EMOTION behind “it does not bother me anymore” 

A little PAIN behind “its okay”

A little NEED behind “Please leave me alone”

A deep THOUGHT behind “i really don’t know”

A STORY behind “Silence”

Often we give so much importance to the words that the feeling behind the words goes almost unnoticed. 

Isn’t it true?

Am I just fooling myself….

This afternoon I was feeling particularly lonely, I felt this urgent need to talk to someone, and then all of a sudden I found myself feeling all the more lonely, I realized I have 311 contacts on my phone, more than 200 friends on my email chat list, but not one person who I felt I could call / ping right away without giving it a second thought. Once upon a time I had some 10 odd friends, but I did not need appointments to meet them, throw parties to greet them or think before talking to them. Now I have close to 500 people I am friends with, or I know, or I think I know or may be I am just fooling myself….

Pick the ripe ones!

Which berries to pick?

Berry picking is quite an adventure. Each bunch has a variety of berries, from green raw ones to dark ripe ones. But we know all of them will ripen one day, some fast, some slow….its all about being patient and taking good care of them and protecting them from harsh weather and insects. When we pick them, we do not discard the raw ones and we need to pick the ripe ones at the right time, before they rot! Now for a moment imagine if the shrub was our life, and each of these berries, one of our dreams. (if you get what I mean 🙂 )