This song is from one of my all time favorite bengali movies Antaheen. Here’s the link to the song: Bhindeshi tara
Amar bhindheshi tara, Eka raateri akaashe,
Tumi bajaale ektara, amar cheelekothar paashe
Theek shondhe namaar mukhe, tomaar naam dhore keyu daake
Mukh lookiye kaar bookhe, tomaar golpo bolo kaake
Mine is a distant star, that shines alone in the night sky
While you play the ektara, close to my terrace
Right around the time the evening sets in, someone calls your name
Who do you go to, to seek comfort, who do you tell your stories to?
(Literally, whose chest do you hide your face in?)
Interpretation: I am lonely (or single) and looking for some company. I heard someone call out your name the other day. Do you live close by? Are you lonely too? or do you have a companion who comforts you when you are worried or sad, a confidant who you share your secrets with.
Amar raat jaga tara, tomaar onno paraaye baadi
Amar bhoye pava chehaara, aami aadote anaadi
Amar akaash dekha ghuri, kichu mitthe bahaduri
Amar chokh bedhe daao aalo, daao shaanto sheetol paati
Tumi maayer motoi bhaalo, aami ekla ti poth haati
Mine is a sleepless star, but your house is in a different neighborhood
And I know I have a scared face, and I am habitually a fool
I have a kite that has roamed the skies, and some misplaced courage
Can you cover my eyes with some light, and give me a peaceful refreshing mat
You comfort just like a mother, and I walk the road all alone
Interpretation: There is really nothing fancy about me, and you seem way out of my league. I am just an ordinary person, scared, foolish. I have experienced life’s hardships or I would like to think I have, which gives me some confidence (maybe misplaced), that I have something to offer to our relationship. I can tell you all about my adventures (and misadventures) and all the things I have learned along the way. I live a lonely life but with you around, I think I will finally find the comfort and peace that I have been after all my life.
Amar bichiri ektara, tumi naao na kotha kaane
Tomar kisher eto tara, raashta paar hobe shabdhaane
Tomar gaae laage na dhulo, amar du mutho chaal chulho
Raakho shorire haath jodi, aar jol maakho dui haathe
Please ghoom hoye jaao chokhe, amar mon kharaaper raate
My ektara is really bad, don’t listen to whatever it plays
Why are you always in such a hurry, please cross the road carefully
You are the one whom dust does not touch, and I survive on two fistfuls of rice
But if you can just place your hand on me, and dab my hands with some water
And (please) bring some sleep to my eyes, on the nights that I am sad
(I will be forever grateful)
Interpretation: Well if you think I am not worth it, it is okay. Just forget whatever I just said, and move on. I am sure you will have a wonderful life, just tread carefully and take care of your self. My life is that of a commoner and you probably live and dream of a very lavish, fancy life, something that I cannot promise. But it would be nice if you could just be that friend to me, who I can call on the days that I need a comforting word or two.
Amar raat jaga tara, tomaar akash choa baadi
Aami paayi na chute tomaaye, amar ekla laage bhari
Mine is a sleepless star, and you reside in a luxurious house (literally sky high)
I try but cannot reach you, I feel lonely (sad) without you.
Interpretation: It is probably silly of me to think there could be anything between us. Our worlds are so far apart that we may never cross paths. I will just have to settle for a life as a loner.
This song is an artfully woven tale of love, which begins with the excitement and mystery surrounding courtship, unfolding unto charmingly honest confessions that are the foundation of any lasting relationship, followed by words of concern and comfort – the endearing emotions that make up love and ends on a lonely note of an incomplete love story. The straightforwardness throughout the song is delightful. Definitely a one-sided narrative but beautiful nevertheless. The guy goes through a series of emotions of – curiosity, hope, love and eventually despair as he realizes he can never be with his beloved because they are worlds apart.
SPOILERS: At first glance this song may seem like a few random tidbits about stars and love and relationships put together to make a composition, unless you know bengali and appreciate the choice of words woven together to create it. But in the context of the movie (and even otherwise) I think it is deep and thoughtful and pretty much sums up the movie’s main story line ( either that or may be I habitually read too much into lyrics of songs). One of the main story lines in the movie is about a cop (Abhik) and a journalist (Brinda). They meet online as strangers who decide to keep their identities a secret. Online, they discuss their philosophies about love, about life, share their interests etc., and fall in love. They happen to cross paths in real life too, and seem to respect each other and enjoy talking to each other. Then, one day the online friends realize they have fallen in love with each other and decide to meet soon. In the real world, Abhik and Brinda have a phone conversation where Abhik brings up a phrase that they used online, and that is when Brinda realizes, Abhik is her mystery online friend, and that is the day she is killed. And that is when this song plays, as Abhik now is waiting endlessly (‘Antaheen apekha’). It is unclear if Abhik puts two and two together, or if he is still in the dark, waiting for his online friend as this song plays, but now do you see the connection.
MOVIE: I would be amiss to conclude this post without telling you what a beautiful , delicately made movie ‘Anthaheen’ is. I have watched this movie several times, and every time I have fallen in love with it all over again. I do like Rahul Bose, so there may be some bias there (I find his movies somewhat off- beat and his acting , effortless).
Anyway, ‘Antaheen’ has an elegant storyline. I find it hard to bin the movie into a genre. It has drama, love, action (may be not so much) wrapped up in a nice little package, but then again it is not your typical masala movie either, it is very realistic, almost like following the stories of a few people in real life. To me, watching this movie is like watching a sunset by the beach,
it is beautiful; full of life; stirs up emotions that are hard to put into words; and towards the end there are some closures which make you feel at peace, but there is also a sense of emptiness that haunts you long after the last of the credits have scrolled by…
much like that spectacular sunset by the beach, when as the night sets in, the endless darkness in the foreground may be unsettling, but there is peace in listening to the sound of the waves and knowing that much like the waves that constantly approach and recede the shore, life goes on, and that tomorrow is another day and the sun will set again, because that is what it does, every evening…the evening will just not be the same one.